19th april '08

Last day of the motivation camp. Through these 3 days of camp, it made me realise the importance of family, studies and friendships in my life. When I recalled the things that the trainers told us, I seriously felt remorse what I have done in the past, not knowing that my parents actually sacrifice a lot for us just to give the best they can but yet I didn't appreciate it but always pushed all the blames towards them. And sometimes I hate them for all their nags nd scoldings but never understand what they did were for our own good and speaks to them in those irrespect manner and scold vulgarites. In fact, my mind were filled with negative thinkings towards them that I have forgotten the positive thinkings towards them and all these positive thinkings were the littlest things they done for us. They spent almost entire life busy working, shrimp and save here and there for one reason and that was to give us a better living in life but what they did, we never knew and never cares about it but always throwing tantrum to them and never does what a daughter should do. I really want to tell them how much I love them, thank them for everything and sorry to them for are my wrong doings in past but I didn't have the courage to tell them verbally, so I wrote out 2 letters for them. I hope they will understand and forgive me. I love mummy & papa lots ! And I realised how much imporant studies was, so I shall not kick off the mindset of dropping school whenever I feel stress or depress. I promise I gonna buck up for my studies to achieve my goals and gets into my idea poly and course and not forgetting to score good result for the upcoming common tests, prelim and O lvl. I must have determination, speed of urgency, endurance, confidence, focus and choices so that I achieve my goals in life. Also for those friends that seen me through my secondary life. They were the ones that been through with me during the ups and downs and conquer all the challenges we were facings. Thank you guys ! Back to the camp, yesterday night closing ceremony was a great success with the help of Danny. all the trainers that tooked up the sec 5n and 4A, Jeff, Wei tang, Leroy and endrick. All the speeches that friends & other yusoffians said to their parents really touches our heart and cried. And I really admire them having the courage to speak up of everyone and express their loves to their family. And we exchanged hugs. I hugged liyi, sockhwee, kaiming, sufyan, shifah, neeza, alisa and atiqah. and from all the warm embrace, I felt that I am not alone facing the problems. And another day, will be the new chapter of my life :] This camp is indeed a good one !

20th april '08

I guessed mummy & daddy had read the letters. When I woke up Mummy asked if I am the one who wrote that mushy letter and I admitted in a shy manner. But anyway it truth that I LOVE THEM LOTS !

Our memories played like a film without a sound.After all this while, today I gonna it go completely. And I don't know when will we meet again in this life but I did hope that in next life I would want to meet u again as a friend but not as a girlfriend. Wk, thank you & sorry for everything. The happiness for us did not last I bless that both you and her happiness will last forever.