Feeling sick again, this time round it much worse than other day and it seemed like my body getting weaker everyday. Almost every night, I could only get into sleep when its about 2-3 am in the morning and after waking up, I'd always feel nauseous, headache or stomachache. Like yesterday's night, before I turn in, I went toilet for two times because of diarrhea and this morning, while everyone was having their breakfast, I only drank a can of drink as my breakfast because what I smelled & saw really turn me off and made me feel like vomitting. So about noon time before everyone left to sin tua, mum bought me a bun and after eating a few mouthfuls, I left it aside as I felt it rather difficult to swallow down my throat. And then everybody left in a car to the sin tua at Jurong west, over there I felt so left out because I was unclean in a way that I'm not allowed to get close with the whole process. Feeling a little boring there thou, I've few lil cousins to keep me accompanied (: managed to see & hear some parts of the process. It took about hours before the adults settle everything and left sin tua around 3+ . Packed lunch as told by mum to at least fill my stomach with smth so I bought duck rice, and managed to finish everything. About 5pm after finished watching my favourite show, went to bed till about 7pm. Again feeling headache & nauseous until now. It's a terrible feeling ever ):

想念是会呼吸的痛,它活在我身上所有角落。哼你爱的歌会痛看你的信会痛连沉默也痛。