Deleted the previous post, as im feeling much better already. Nowadays im so short of cash despite the fact I still get pocket money from mum. I need to find myself a job before school starts.

It is hard to love, so why wait for it?

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It is 1.05am and it is his birthday {Happy birthday to you}. He rang me up just now after he saw the card and he sounded so excited, not because of the card but his birthday as its less than an hour more to go. He talked craps, he sang, he giggled to himself etc despite the fact im feeling a little annoyed by it. And don't know why, it leads to him telling me he actually still blog. Out of curious, I asked him to show me before I hack into his account and he agreed. Pages of posts, chunks of words, funniest photos I ever seen and how much he love her then. He asked me how is it after reading, I did not say much but gave him my blessing thou. And never I thought I would saw those posts he wrote 3 years back, it how silly by then. We ended our chat in msn after he went to sleep while im still here typing on... & my mind couldn't get off it yet.