A new blog now, but I won't be deleting away the previous blog because it contains many happy, angry and sad memories and memories do stayed in my heart.This morning it was like raining cats and dogs. And when sockhwee and me reached the school it was already late, so after morning assbly I headed to toilet to dry up myself because from my head to toe I am soaked, especially my shoe ! English was first period and upon stepping in the class, I smelled an unpleasant smell and to my surpise, I saw friends took off their shoe & socks walking around the class bare footed and I knew that smell definitely came from them. Stinks! :/ And the weather was cold.Had chemistry, for the first half an hour I wasn't paying attention because I'm busying cleaning up my worksheets and teen companion as they were soaked by the rain too, poor thing. And mr.chow gave us back our test paper and to my surprise again, I passed the test and even it just borderline pass I am very happy, ha :] & of course mr.chow have another opinion of me already, he praised me and said if I work harder I'll suceed. I will ! Recess had been eating the same food almost everyday, I tried something else, noodles soup with a lot other ingredients after eating, I feel bloated. Social studies was boring one, continued with the group work & presentations.Today is friday it mean the dismissal time was 12.15pm everyone was awaiting for bell ring so some of them chats, played psp, watched pornography, played handphones and this include me playing jiehuan's handphone game :] After school, headed for bubbletea with sockhwee before heading home. Went back school in the afternoon for f&n coursework and she is nowhere to be seen I wonder if she came or not. On the surface, everyone stared at the computers doing their coursework but some of them were logged onto other websites & e-messenger and this include me who logged too imeen for musics, ha. Finally, I finished up my decision-making and get to leave first. Bought some croissant, then home sweet home.

Plannings ahead:
• English tuition starting next friday.
• Mocks exams and class tests coming up.
•3 days 2 nights motivation camp.
• Common exams in May.

Label: Accept what I can't change and stop beating my head against the wall and move on.

I don't know when will be the time I finally get over you completely because parts of the memories are still so visible in my eyes. I thought that getting away from where you been, I would able to get over you but yet, my wills keep urging me to go where you have been, letting me saw your doings now and it always give me some unhappy surprise from there and even knowing a status of yours it like another time of bullets penetrate real hard through my heart, it hurts. All those unhappy surprise I got to know, made me questioned myself with many 'whys' and I could only answered one of them and the rest, I couldn't came up with an answer and yet some, I wish I could ask you. Many nights I stayed up late dwelling about the past and each time tears never failed to roll down,but now how much I feel emotional, tears never seemed to roll down anymore and it like my tears I cried over you, had dried up. Friends tells me that it the god fate that don't allowed me to cry over you again because you are not worth for me to cry about and I could only take their says to comfort myself. And yes, I told girlfriend that I wish I am blind to see nothing, I wish I have no heart to feel those pain it might sound ridiculous but this is how I feel facing this problem. Also, I understand that now you and her were together I have to give you my blessings as a stranger and hoping she is the real girl you finding all while and lastlong with. My greatness only stops here.她会替我爱你